Freedom

Sometimes I wonder what it is like to be free,
Like a monkey swinging from tree to tree,
Or like young eagles way in the skies,
Calling to each other with joyful cries.
Oh, to be free and without a care,
Not to live in bondage or constant fear.
To live each day and spread my wings,
To be forever untouched by negative things.

I got my answer today!
I experienced life which is free of bondage, I did fly today and did it without any care or concern

Oh my soul flew high up in the sky today..
It was heavenly!

Choice

I have recently caught my self thinking a lot about things which I want to do but havenot.
The reason the usual... I dont have time....

But, do I dont have time or have I choosen to not have time......

After all its again me who says that life is about the choices you make...

Right!

You!!!

Come close to me
And look into my eyes;
Tell me what you see.
Try to look deeper in them
And find yourself in me.

During the day or be it night
Whatever I see… it’s you in my sight.
I see myself in the mirror… it’s you.
Thoughts are worthless thoughts
If the thoughts are not… of you.

Am I myself?... (I wonder at times)
Or is it you in me that shines?
Have you lost yourself… in me?
For it’s only you.. my eyes can see.
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Yes no matter how hard I try, you have become a part of me.
Yes it was me who disconnected all plugs, but who initiated it?

This is a question we can go on and on about.
But what do I do.
You are inside me and will stay there.
How ever hard I try, this situation I doubt will change.
Yes, one moves ahead in life. but the point of reference remains.
If I say, I have moved ahead. So???
You still exist. If not in anything else, in the point of reference from where I have moved ahead.
You have touched my life in a special way which will be cherished for ever.
But, that brushing of our lifes could leave such deep impressions on my life was something I was not ready for.

Yes you.. you have changed me.
My life took a turn when my life met yours.
It's said that your life, luck and situations do get influenced by the people around you.

How True

I changed. Yes I have. And I changed after I met you.

So, no matter what people say I can't forget you. I can't afford to do that coz if I attempt to do that, I will be forgetting myself. If I have to erase you from my life, I'll have to erase myself.

Can one be self distructive? I can't do that.
You can say that I am foolish not to do it or I don't have the courage.

I say I'm being wise. Coz if I wipe you, my existence is a question mark.

I love life too much to let it go..
No, I can't let my life slip by.
So, I can't forget you.
Yes you are part of me and will remain till my last breath.

The Transition

Life...... is synonyms of fun..... till few months back that's what I used to think!

Today, I realize that life has lots more to it than just fun and masti .donno why how n when this change came..
When??? I guess I can attempt to answer that..

A person who is away from all loved ones.. living all alone so alone that if you fall ill no one is thereto offer a glass of water also
At the same time doing what one wants at own whims and fancies
Working for a company who is sucking your blood everyday and you are suffering from lack of sleep. To the extend of spending not just a night but nights in office

So all you could think about if and one would get time was sleeping and chilling out
An extremely self centered life

This changed a bit abruptly to living with people who matter who care and who are there for you always. Working for a company where the timing is not grilling and you can have your personal space

You are being taken care of and everything is at your disposal.

That change I think has made me realize the importance of people and to be thankful for all the blessing I have been blessed with.

Sometimes I Wonder!

Sometimes I wonder
What life's all about
Alone I'll often ponder
But I never figure out...

Why people have to die
So many seem to suffer
Evil people always lie
Is faith my only buffer??

Sometimes I wonder
Why won't GOD help out??
Is he way up younder??
Why does he make us doubt??

Does struggle make us stronger??
Why can't we keep our loved ones longer??
It's so hard to understand.
I will never understand
All life's ups and downs
We're a part of a scheme so grand
With all its smiles and its frowns
Beleiving is achiveing
As we overcome our trials
Faith becomes convincing
As we fiddle with life's dials

Sometimes I wonder
What life is all about??
Alone I often ponder
But never figure out....
Is suffering in his plan??
Why can't we keep our loved ones longer??
It's so hard to understand.


I will never understand
All life's ups and downs
We're a part of a scheme so grand
With all its smiles and its frowns


Beleiving is achiveing
As we overcome our trials
Faith becomes convincing
As we fiddle with life's dials


Sometimes I wonder
What life is all about??
Alone I often ponder
But never figure out....

Aansoo !!!

I was going through a site n found some lines which i liked a lot n they discribe me n my situation so well.....

I donno who wrote this but who ever has writen this has touched my heart deeply...

Bikhrey aansoo k moti hum piro na sake

Teri yaad me saari raat so na sake

Beh na jaye aansoo main tasvir teri

Bus yahi soch kar hum ro na sake

Wo mil jatey hain kahani bankar

Dil mein bas jatey hain nishani bankar

Jinhe hum rakhte hain apni aakho mein

Kioon nikal jatey hain wo pani bankar

Khayaalo ko kisi aahat ki aas rehti hai

Nigaaho ko teri talaash rehti hai

Tere bina koi kami nahi lekin

Tere bagair tabiyat udaas rehti hai

Samjha na koi dil ki baat ko

Dard duniya ne bin soche hi de diya

Seh gaye jo hum agar dard ko chupke se

To phir humko patthar dil keh diya

Agar hum na hote to gazzal kon kehata

Aapke chehare ko komal kon kehata

Ye to karishma hai mohabbat ka

Varna patthar ko TAJ-MEHAL kon kehata

Dard se dosti ho gayi yaaroo

Zindagi bedard ho gayi yaaroo

Kya huwa jo jal gaya aashiyana hamara

Door tak roshni to ho gayi yaaroo

I Wonder When.....

I don't know where the feeling went;
I've tried to find where they hide.

My mind wanders back in time,
Remembering how your touch felt,
How your smile lit up my days.

But no matter how much I try,
The love stays away.

I want to feel it again,
Feel the butterflies swarm when you call my name.

But they don't;
Only memories of long ago feelings remain.

Yes I wander back in time every day but.. I wonder when will this feeling go!!!

*~* When Tomorrow Starts Without Me *~*

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;

If the sun should rise and find your eyes, All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry, The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you miss me to;
But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready, In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind, All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared, All the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you, And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when i did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when i walked through heavens gates, I felt so much at home,
When God looked down and smiled at me, from his great golden throne,
He said "This is eternity, And all I promised you."
Today for life on earth is past, But here is starts a new.
I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true.
Thought there were times you did some things, You knew you shouldn't do,
But you have been forgiven, And now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand, And share my life with me,
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we are far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I am right here in your HEART