The Transition

Life...... is synonyms of fun..... till few months back that's what I used to think!

Today, I realize that life has lots more to it than just fun and masti .donno why how n when this change came..
When??? I guess I can attempt to answer that..

A person who is away from all loved ones.. living all alone so alone that if you fall ill no one is thereto offer a glass of water also
At the same time doing what one wants at own whims and fancies
Working for a company who is sucking your blood everyday and you are suffering from lack of sleep. To the extend of spending not just a night but nights in office

So all you could think about if and one would get time was sleeping and chilling out
An extremely self centered life

This changed a bit abruptly to living with people who matter who care and who are there for you always. Working for a company where the timing is not grilling and you can have your personal space

You are being taken care of and everything is at your disposal.

That change I think has made me realize the importance of people and to be thankful for all the blessing I have been blessed with.

Sometimes I Wonder!

Sometimes I wonder
What life's all about
Alone I'll often ponder
But I never figure out...

Why people have to die
So many seem to suffer
Evil people always lie
Is faith my only buffer??

Sometimes I wonder
Why won't GOD help out??
Is he way up younder??
Why does he make us doubt??

Does struggle make us stronger??
Why can't we keep our loved ones longer??
It's so hard to understand.
I will never understand
All life's ups and downs
We're a part of a scheme so grand
With all its smiles and its frowns
Beleiving is achiveing
As we overcome our trials
Faith becomes convincing
As we fiddle with life's dials

Sometimes I wonder
What life is all about??
Alone I often ponder
But never figure out....
Is suffering in his plan??
Why can't we keep our loved ones longer??
It's so hard to understand.


I will never understand
All life's ups and downs
We're a part of a scheme so grand
With all its smiles and its frowns


Beleiving is achiveing
As we overcome our trials
Faith becomes convincing
As we fiddle with life's dials


Sometimes I wonder
What life is all about??
Alone I often ponder
But never figure out....

Aansoo !!!

I was going through a site n found some lines which i liked a lot n they discribe me n my situation so well.....

I donno who wrote this but who ever has writen this has touched my heart deeply...

Bikhrey aansoo k moti hum piro na sake

Teri yaad me saari raat so na sake

Beh na jaye aansoo main tasvir teri

Bus yahi soch kar hum ro na sake

Wo mil jatey hain kahani bankar

Dil mein bas jatey hain nishani bankar

Jinhe hum rakhte hain apni aakho mein

Kioon nikal jatey hain wo pani bankar

Khayaalo ko kisi aahat ki aas rehti hai

Nigaaho ko teri talaash rehti hai

Tere bina koi kami nahi lekin

Tere bagair tabiyat udaas rehti hai

Samjha na koi dil ki baat ko

Dard duniya ne bin soche hi de diya

Seh gaye jo hum agar dard ko chupke se

To phir humko patthar dil keh diya

Agar hum na hote to gazzal kon kehata

Aapke chehare ko komal kon kehata

Ye to karishma hai mohabbat ka

Varna patthar ko TAJ-MEHAL kon kehata

Dard se dosti ho gayi yaaroo

Zindagi bedard ho gayi yaaroo

Kya huwa jo jal gaya aashiyana hamara

Door tak roshni to ho gayi yaaroo

I Wonder When.....

I don't know where the feeling went;
I've tried to find where they hide.

My mind wanders back in time,
Remembering how your touch felt,
How your smile lit up my days.

But no matter how much I try,
The love stays away.

I want to feel it again,
Feel the butterflies swarm when you call my name.

But they don't;
Only memories of long ago feelings remain.

Yes I wander back in time every day but.. I wonder when will this feeling go!!!

*~* When Tomorrow Starts Without Me *~*

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see;

If the sun should rise and find your eyes, All filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry, The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me, As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you miss me to;
But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready, In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind, All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared, All the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while,
I'd say goodbye and kiss you, And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when i did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when i walked through heavens gates, I felt so much at home,
When God looked down and smiled at me, from his great golden throne,
He said "This is eternity, And all I promised you."
Today for life on earth is past, But here is starts a new.
I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last,
And since each day is the same way, There's no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true.
Thought there were times you did some things, You knew you shouldn't do,
But you have been forgiven, And now at last you're free.
So won't you take my hand, And share my life with me,
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we are far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I am right here in your HEART